Winter has come and with no mercy.

We have not even had a Fall… the leaves that were blown off in the snowy wind were all green. Quite disappointing.

So I have been trying this new thing.. Atkins…
I know its not healthy for you.. not one little bit. But you do get results rather quickly which is what I am only caring about at this point.

I have never had any ’stick-with-it-ness’.
but that’s just me and I embrace who I am.
The thing that surprised me the most was that
Matt knew of lack of ’stick-with-it-ness’.
When I told him that I was going to do it (all motivated and in an excited way)

he asked me

”What do you want me to do when you come to me saying, Matt I really want chocolate… do you think a little nibble would matter?
Or Matttttt…… your cereal or ice cream or spaghetti looks awfully good… its just that you don’t really stay devoted to things and it puts me in a sticky spot
because if I say- Kari, no you shouldn’t have that you are on Atkins, you’ll most likely get annoyed and call me ’stickler’ .
Or if I say -Yes sure, have it, its up to you sweetie- then you get annoyed because you think i didn’t think from the beginning that you could last.”

I said
‘huh?! I don’t do that.’

But i do.
I know I do.
I give in to my moments of weakness..
and frankly.. I don’t really care…
Or at least I didn’t until I realized that people noticed my lack of devotion.
I guess I forgot that people had eyes and have connected the dots of things I didn’t complete
from Piano to Running in the mornings to, to scripture study to…Atkins. The list goes longer i can assure you.

This statement from Matt got me thinking… do i lack devotion???
and after 10 minutes of pondering…
I made a list to show him that I do have devotion in some things.

-Devoted to our marriage
- Devoted to my family
- Devoted to music
- Devoted to my Faith
- Devoted to the Internet
- Devoted to Photography
- I showed devotion to Massage Therapy Training
- and I am sure I am devoted to a lot of other things that I just can’t think of at this moment

and he said
‘yup. you are right’

and that is all i needed to hear. those sweet sounding words that i kept saying in my head over and over and over again.

So Last night- I had a bowl of cereal and Matt busted me with the dish…
and I said ‘ what?? I am devoted to this marriage- would you rather me switch my devotion to Atkins?? cause i can only be devoted to so many things at once.’

He just smiled and kissed me =)

I was telling Radelle on the phone all about my Atkins ordeal.. and I stated

‘…well I would rather fail at something I love then to succeed at something I hate’.

We both just laughed..
I like the justification of it.

-By Radelle

Ok world wide web, Ive realised that I am a perfectionist. Not in spelling mind you. I am having my custom dream house plans drawn up (we are preparing to build) and I have sent the plans back to my architect a hundred times with arrows and notes and explanations and requests. he loves me. We are also totally revamping our logo & website, and I am sending sentences like this to the designer “I want the loopies more loose and less like ringlets. more fancy and less princess’y’. I want the font a little bit more glamorous and sophisticated, but less trendy and artsy. she also loves me. I fear that I may not make it on their “thankful” lists this thanksgiving. Maybe i’ll make them a pie……

We recently celebrated Thanksgiving. I have so much to be Thankful for it is scary. I am so blessed. So very blessed.

Here is a tiny tiny list of things that jumped into my head as I sat here today to craft this blog post:

 i.am.thankful.for.

-The love of a man I do not deserve. A man who makes the hero in chick flicks look like a cheap phony. A man who makes me feel like the smartest, prettiest, best woman around.

-The love of a son (pictured) who is beyond cute, beyond sweet, beyond kind, and beyond funny. who thinks that I am the best thing alive, and that they only thing better then me is choo choos (trains). I would have waited a hundred years for him if I had to, but im sure glad I didnt have to, because life with him is complete bliss. he is my heart.

-stretchy pants for thanksgiving dinner. the more hidious, the more awesome.

- people who will let you go ahead of them in line, when you only have 1 or 2 things

- that walmart carries goats milk (no, not ewww. mmmmmm)

- The variety in Alberta’s landscape

-GPS

- Quaint mom & pop restaurants

-being a savy enough driver to swerve around random chunks of tire left on the hiway (after a semi blowout?)

-hot tubs. even murky ones.

- People who are real & genuine

- Pencil skirts & sassy scarves

- Ugly sweater parties