I lost my dad to cancer when I was 17 years old. I miss him dearly. With my whole soul. I loved him, adored him & wanted to grow
up and marry him. Thankfully I did, Adam is so much like my dad and I love it. As a little girl, my dad called me a special name.
Various family members would also call me this nickname from timetotime, but my dad almost ALWAYS called me this name.
It was rarely Radelle, and almost always “my name”.
He called me Dee-Doll. When he called me Dee-doll, I felt like we were pals, old friends; but at the same time that I was his princess.
Within that name, I was his buddy & his angel all in one. It made me special & unique to him. It made me feel loved.
When Adam & I were falling in love, he would call me Dee-Doll from time to time, knowing how special it was to me. I loved it.
It was like a big mushy verbal hug from both my dad and my sweetheart. When we got married, he suprised me and had Dee-Doll
engraved on my ring. When I saw it, I wept like a baby.
This Christmas, we did a gift exchange with my siblings. We draw names & bought gifts. Kari’s husband Matt (who joined the
family this past July when they were married) had my name. I was nervous. The talk on the streets was that I was getting a
automated -spaghetti twirling fork. It was my turn to open my gifts. Im always scared to open gifts in front of people because
apparently my face tells it all. Even if my mouth is saying “I LOVE IT” my face may be saying
“what-the-heck-is-this-thing-no-serious-what-is-it?”
I reached into the box & pulled out a pink hoodie. I was so impressed. I LOVE pink. I LOVE hoodies. If you picture me
at my office working on your wedding images, im not likely in a highwaisted skirt with a stylish top and stilletto heels
(although I would prefer for you to picture me like this), but im likely in flip flops, lulus and a pink hoodie. While I was
ooggling the hoodie, impressed that Matt could peg me so well (what, so he’s only seen me wearing one 90%of the time???),
I spotted some personalization. On the waistband off to the side was embroidered “Dee-Doll”. There are very few times in
my life when I have been instantly moved to tears (okay, a lot but still), but I literally burst into tears in front of everyone.
I was so overwhelmed by the meaning of the gesture. Especially in a month when I was really missing my dad. Tears were
literally dripping off my chin & I couldnt stay on top of wiping them off. As I looked around the living room, there wasnt a dry eye.
My emotions & the gesture from my new brother-in-law had affected everyone. The Love was reflecting around the living room.
It was like a moment out of a movie. The best movie ive ever seen.
I am so glad that Matt got me that hoodie. But I am even more greatful that he decided against embroidering “Hot Mama” on it
and instead put “Dee-Doll”.
